Is it possible to miss someone this much. Someone who you have only recently met, and fallen in love with. I have never not believed in love at first sight, but that’s only because I have never experienced it, so I didn’t know if it was real or not but maybe this is what it’s like. I can’t be sure if it is, or isn’t or what it is,but I like it. I’m only 17 and I get that, but love has no time, no rules, when you find it you find it. As much as I love this feeling, I also hate it. Being in love means you have something to lose, and you never want to lose that. They will say you will never lose them, but feelings are unpredictable. Missing them is the worst part, you dont want to feel needy and you want to believe that you can rely on yourself, but once you have experienced love, you truly know what its like to be happy. You also fall into thoughts of them, everything you think comes back to them. You remember their voice, their touch, the feelings you get when your with then. I hate the distance, the time I spend apart thinking about every little thing that could go wrong and change. You want to be able to love and give your heart to someone, and not be hesitant but that’s like making a deal with the devil. You are giving someone that part of you and they control it. They have your heart and your trusting that they won’t break it, you believe it, but we never want to believe in something that has no flaws. We feel its too good to be true. But where will we go in life if we never believe in the good, and learn to accept that bad. We will have nothing to look forward to, nothing to believe in. Love is a simple word, so small and precious. Just like a newborn, we have to be careful, cradle the moments, remember those memories and accept the miracle we are given. But if fate steps in, and proves that we have to be apart, then we have to accept that to. We shouldn’t let it hold us back from great opportunities in the future, we need to be grateful for letting love take us away, because It will, and I promise it will come back.
It sucks when you set your heart up for disappointment because you wish for that something to happen, even though you clearly know its never going to.
1. Take yourself out to dinner and buy two bottles of fancy wine, then down them in gulps while you wait for the appetizers to arrive. Order the most expensive entrees; try something new-duck slathered in plum sauce, leg of lamb with fresh parsley on the side. Then smile at all the other patrons…
(Source: writingsforwinter)
